I must admit that telling a positive story in the sense of violence against women can sound like a very big double-sided idea that is difficult to understand. To make sure that you understand correctly what I mean when saying a “positive story” it means when a woman tells a story that ends with a positive outcome and where she can be positive about the future.
I would like to tell such a story. This is a real story that happened to me and I want to make clear that I got permission to share it as it took some rash and bad turns.
When I was sixteen years old I became friends with a woman who was 45 then. Our friendship took some interesting turns. She had suffered abuse and rape and faced some very difficult questions and decisions in her life. She has had a lot of bad experiences but tells a positive story today because she is in a happy relationship; she feels worthy and has a lot of people surrounding her with love and good relationships. When fellow Christians wanted to “stone her”, she stood tall and believed in herself and kept believing that God loves her and that Jesus died for her sins and for that reason she is free. I have known her well for almost ten years now and I will tell her story which has a positive ending in the hope that many others will follow. I will use an alias to protect her privacy.
As a young girl Jane went from a small town in South Africa to the big city to fulfil her dreams of becoming a hairdresser. She came from a rich family but decided that she would stand on her own feet and live her own legacy. After a while she was exposed to alcohol and drugs and unfortunately fell for them. She also fell in love with a guy and got pregnant by accident. Even though her family was disgraced by her pregnancy, her boyfriend stood by her and asked her to get married. He was wealthy and took good care of her and their newborn girl. A few years later she had another baby, this time a boy. She took care of the children at home and didn’t become a hairdresser as she dreamed. After five years one day her husband didn’t arrive home. She went looking everywhere and couldn’t trace him. It became clear he had left her and the children for good. She had to make a plan since she didn’t have any access to their accounts. So she decided to go back to her parents as the city is an expensive place to survive without any income and two children.
She arrived at her parents’ home and they let her stay with them despite the disgrace she brought to the family. She started working at a tavern in a small town to earn some money. She was heartbroken at the time and she tells how she struggled to look after the children and love them since she could see her once loving husband’s reflection in their eyes and she couldn’t understand how he could just leave. At the tavern she started drinking again and tells how men would some nights want to use her for sex and would hit her or swear at her if she refused.
She had to get away and had to start a new life. She went to another town as she got a small but promising job as a secretary. She worked hard and after some time fell in love with one of the workers at the place. He was much younger than she and seemed to like the children who were teenagers by that time. She found her husband in the meantime and managed to get divorced but didn’t manage to get any financial maintenance for her or the children. She got married for the second time and she seemed to be very happy. They just starting building a new future together when he announced that he was going to quit his job and that he thought that it was better that the children go off to live in a school hostel. The children only came home on weekends and she missed them a lot.
After a few years she realized that he has been cheating on her with several women during their short marriage. He started beating her when she confronted him with that. Unfortunately she never went to the police but just decided to divorce him and move on.
She had been lying to herself all the time and, even though she felt the urge when she was younger, she couldn’t speak about her homosexuality because of society and pride. For the first time in her life she decided to speak out about it. Maybe it wasn’t the best decision to start speaking about it when she was in an emotional state after getting divorced and all the feelings attached to that. She first went to her family and friends and decided to make it clear in the church as well. She didn’t get a lot of support, her family chased her away and said that they don’t want to have anything to do with her, all but two of her friends deserted her and the church placed her under censorship, they proclaimed the fact that being homosexual is a sin and that she should repent and live a celibate life. She decided to stand strong and to keep on going to the church and to stay a member. After some time she fell in love and she is still living with her partner.
“This has been one of the most difficult times in my life” she admits, “losing my family (her father died in the process) my friends and standing up against a whole church that treats you like a leper.”
She went through this time with a lot of questions about life and faith. She only recently came to a stage where she is truly accepting herself and being truly happy for who and what she is. Currently she and her partner are living together and her children have accepted the fact that their mother is homosexual but also enjoy the fact that their mother is happy and enjoying life to the full despite a long and sad history.